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My Netflix Recommendations

Hey there, welcome back to my blog.
After a heavy hearted post last week, I wanted to do something a bit more light hearted.
So I decided we could chat about Netflix shows.
I would love 💖 it if you left a comment on what your favourite Netflix shows and films are.
These are some of the shows I have been loving.
So this is an American show, it’s jam packed full of gossip, bribery, money, cover ups. It’s not cheesy but it it’s girly and an easy watch. It’s all about a family and their sordid not so little secrets!!
The Good Place
This might sound like it’s morbid but it’s really not. It’s actually funny. It’s about a girl who dies and ends up in The Good Place or so she thinks. It actually turns out to be somewhere else she’s gone! Watch it though it’s funny to see how it works out. Cleverly and insightful as to how someone thinks things might be.
The Santa Clarita Diet
I started this ages ago and then got creeped out so I stopped lol! Then I ran out of things to watch so I went back and watched it. It is a bit gross but if you can get past that (I’m pathetic, no horror or thrillers here! There’s a good reason for this though) basically right at the very start Drew Barrymore who is one of the main characters turns into a zombie. The story is about how her and her family cope with it. To me it’s basically a sick/gross comedy lol!
Chilling adventures of Sabrina
I absolutely loved the teenage witch when I was growing up, so when I found out this was coming to Netflix I was thrilled. It’s dark but I love it, it’s not scary either. It’s basically a dark version of the teenage witch.
Working Moms
There’s only one season of this at the moment but as a Mum it’s bloody good and very relatable. Some of it made me laugh and some made me cry. Just to watch it in screen what you live or have lived. It’s well, hated to watch in some ways but reassuring that we are not alone as parents.
The good witch
I love anything that involves magic or another world, whilst this isn’t directly magical. There’s hints of it. It’s about a woman and daughter who live in a small American town and the woman has a sixth sense another things. I’ve had my share of sixth sense moments (something I haven’t publicly talked about) so this is perfect for me.
The umbrella academy
This I loved! Seven babies born on the same day at the same time with extraordinary gifts. It really is worth a watch and action packed. Again only one season as yet though.
Dead to me
I’ll be honest, I’m dubious about programmes that involve death just in case it triggers my own grief.
Anyway, this was manageable. There’s a few turns at the end which might take you by surprise. It’s good and interesting. Basically a woman’s husband had died in a hit and run and the plot revolves around finding out what happens.
Sex education
Oh god! 🤦🏻‍♀️ this is a bit cringe to be honest but funny. It’s set in a school in America and there’s a teenage boy or ends up dishing out advise about anything and everything sex related. His Mum is a sex therapist……and she’s embarrassing…..cringe but funny lol!
The OA
Ok so I saw the first one but I haven’t seen the second season yet. The first one really intrigued me. It was all very strange and odd and nothing made sense until towards then end and even then I’m not sure it made sense to be honest lol! However I feel like it’s done now and heard that the second season just isn’t as good. If you have seen it though let me know.
Shadow Hunters
I am full on addicted to this! Warlocks, vampires, werewolves and shadow hunters who protect everyone in the city from the bad people. They also keep the ‘regular folk’ from finding out about this whole other world. I loved to from the start, and I am eagerly awaiting the fifth season! That’s if there is one I haven’t checked 🤔
Jane the virgin
This is very easy to watch. Basically a virgin gets accidentally artificially inseminated. It’s crazy, there’s drama every episode but it’s a great easy watch. It’s almost wrapping everything up for good and u cent wait to see how they end it. There’s quite a few seasons but it will keep you going.
We are quite behind and only just started watching this but it’s good. I can’t say I am gripped though. We just watch if there’s nothing else to watch.
Stranger Things
This is bloody great and if you haven’t seen it where on earth have you been? You must have been living under a rock because everyone is eagerly awaiting season 3.
I can’t really comment much on this yet as we have only seen about 2/3 episodes but so far I like it.
This is utterly brilliant! Benedict Cumberbatch plays Sherlock and is fantastic. It’s fast paced and witty. Seriously worth a watch.
Black Mirror
What can I say about this? It’s good, creepy, sick, twisted, far fetched, out of this world technology and well yeah some episodes are seriously fucked up and but each one is different. It’s worth a watch but keep an open mind lol!
Anyway. Those are the T.V shows that I have been watching. I would love to know what is in your Netflix list.
Much love

Emma’s Bites – Toad in the hole

I apologise for the lateness of today’s blog but I haven’t fell well at all today.
Anyway, your not here to know about my and my stupid illness. You are here for another delicious meal!
This week is toad in the hole.
Simple. Effective and bloody amazing 😉
I love sausages and the boys love Yorkshire Puddings so it’s a win win. 🥰
So, I don’t know about you but firstly I prefer to pre grill my sausage. I prefer them really crispy. 😋 Either grill or frying pan it’s up to you.

The best batter we have found is from BBC food website. I don’t know if you have looked but they have some amazing recipes on their site 😍.
So the recipe is as follows;
140g plain flour
4 eggs
200ml milk

Get a big tray to cook your Yorkshire in. (See my picture further on for reference). Stick some oil in to cover and pop in a hot hot oven for ten mins.
Then grab a bowl and pop the flour in, add 4 beaten eggs and beat until smooth. Add the milk bit by bit. Keep beating / whisking so that it eventually ends up smooth. Place the mixture into a jug ready to pour into the tray.
When the sausages are partly cooked, pop them in your tray and out the batter around them.
Stuck the tray in the oven. Should take around 25 minutes to cook. Remember, whatever you do DO NOT open the oven door.

When it’s nearly ready go get your vegetables ready. It’s a filling dish so I just do two lots of vegetables with it and I always do it in the microwave for ease. Also it tastes much better. Carrots 🥕 , stick them in a dish add a little bit of water an cover with cling film. Microwave for 2/3 minutes. Do the same with broccoli 🥦.

Sort yourself some gravy out, personally we prefer bistro gravy.
The only thing left to do is to serve.

Let me know if you try it and enjoy it.

What if the worst happens again?

I always think the worst.
If you have also experienced organising a funeral for your own child then you too will understand the sheer indescribable pain that comes with watching your child take the first and final breaths.
I have written various blogs about what it’s like experiencing baby loss. What I haven’t talked about though is how this experience has reflected on the rest of my life.
I saw a post a while ago now which led me writing this blog as I related so much too it.
This might seem sad to some of you or even silly. The thing is having experienced the worst thing possible and not being prepared for it (FYI, you are never actually prepared just so you know) I now fear the worst in most cases of things.
I fear loosing another loved one. I fear something happening to Alfie or Ste. Or even myself.
I dread going on the motorway now and feel like I’m crying inside through shear fear that we will crash. I can’t actually watch what’s going on it scares me that much. If Alfie is with me in the car I’m worse.
If Alfie gets poorly I instantly come up with a plan in my head of what to do if something happens. I think of everything that might be wrong and how to fix it if needs be or what do pack if we have to go to hospital.
I worry if Ste isn’t home when he usually is. Ridiculous I know because he’s a grown man but I worry that something might have happened to him.
Whilst I was undergoing tests to find out why I couldn’t walk properly anymore, I was so worried that something would happen to me and I wouldn’t see Alfie grow up. I thought about how Ste would manage and what I could do to help if that might happen. Drastic? May be. I was scared though and had no idea what was wrong.
The thing is. Loosing Ethan broke me. Literally. It was a huge shock and I didn’t know how to cope. As humans we honestly are not designed for that amount of pain. Trust me. If your brave enough, try and imagine living without one of your children, that pain and sadness you feel? Triple it. That’s what it’s like.
So as you can imagine, that pain I felt was so bloody painful and unimaginable. I can’t go through that kind of pain again I just can’t. The thing is though now, I just imagine the worst things in so many different circumstances. May be it’s to prepare myself just in case I don’t know, I try not too. I take deep breaths and rationalise with myself. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. There you have it though. Another insight though into the world of an Angel Mummy xx

Emma’s Bites – stir fry

So here we are again. Another foodie blog.
I’m keeping it simple this week with a story fry!
Now I wanted to use prawns but Ste wasn’t keen. You could use tofu as well, however we used chicken. We bought a whole chicken and seasoned and cooked it. We used some in the stir fry and the rest was used for lunches.
Now I’m a huge fan of frozen peppers and onions. Especially when I’m having a flare up with my FND which I am now. It’s up to you if you use frozen or fresh but throw some in the wok and cook them up.
Then add your rice noodles which only take a few minutes.

Sauce, we used blue dragon sweet chilli sauce. Add that and your chicken or whatever you are using. Stir fry for a few lunges and that’s it done.
It literally takes less than 10 minutes, it’s tasty and easy to do plus it’s tasty so win win I reckon!

Let me know if you try it. I would love to know.
Our meals this week are as follows:
Chilli and rice
Sweet and sour chicken and rice.
Toad in the hole
Chicken burgers
Share your meal ideas with me I would love some more inspiration!!!!

Dyspraxia update

It’s been a long time since I wrote about my dyspraxia so I thought I would let you know how I’m getting on with that at the moment.
The truth is even after all these years it still gets me down.i just really bloody hate it and. It’s so frustrating. I still sometimes wonder even now how I ended up with all these bloody neurological conditions. It’s just not fair lol. It makes things so difficult and I would love to know what it’s like to not have all these conditions. My dyspraxia has got worse recently, I’ve no idea why but my FND has flared up again so I’m guessing that might have something to do with it.
I haven’t broken anything that I can remember anyway, however I have dropped so many things. I’ve spilt peas all over the floor, tea all over myself and even managed to catch my top on a door handle which meant I ended up with a really horrible cut on my arm. These things are never just a one off accident though it’s every day things like this!

Then there’s my hearing, that’s getting worse. I mean I can hear, it’s the fact that if there’s a few conversations going on I can’t filter them out too the one I should be listening too. Oh and background noise, that’s a nightmare!
I recently bought an adapter for my pen as that’s really starting to bug me now. I just find holding a pen so flipping difficult. I just can’t grip it properly to write with it.

What’s really fun now is having Dyspraxia and FND! Sometimes it’s hard to know the difference between them. Both gave speech problems and getting confused with words. My memory is getting worse and I’ll be honest it’s white embarrassing now.
You know what’s worse though? I worry that Alfie has it. I see traits of me in him, the dyspraxia side of me. In the grand scheme of life having dyspraxia isn’t the end of the word and if that’s all he has then compared to how poorly my first son was it’s a bonus. However that being said, it can make life hard work sometimes and I just don’t want them for him. Like most parents I want him to be 100% healthy, but we all know life doesn’t turn out that way.

Emma’s Bites – Meal Plan

So after that really long post on my Indian fake-away I figured I would write my meal plan separate!
Breakfasts this week will just be cereal or poached eggs on toast. Lunches just up a soups, picky plates or jacket potato and cheese.
This week I’ve tried to be more money savvy and eat things like leftovers and using what’s already in the freezer.
Monday – leftover beef from yesterday’s roast dinner, home made chips and some gravy.
Tuesday – pitta bread pizza and chips (I have some pittas in the freezer already)
Wednesday – jacket potato and leftover curry or spaghetti hoops and cheese
Thursday – sausage and mash (I have sausages left over in the freezer)
Friday – pasta and garlic bread
Saturday – prawn noodle stir fry (I already have prawns in the freezer and noodles in the cupboard)
Sunday – pie and chips (well it’s Father’s Day so it’s his treat lol)
I hope it helps with your meal planning. I would love to know what your having this week.
Much love
Emma xx

Emma’s Bites – Indian Fakeaway

So here we are again back on Emma Bites! How are we all enjoying it? Have you tried anything yet? I would love to know. I treated my lot to an Indian Fakeaway on Friday last week just so I could write it up for you lovely lot lol! God aren’t I nice to you lol!
So it’s going to be a long one so I’ll put headers up so you can find everything.
As I’ve said before I haven’t created any of these recipes these are just ones I have collected over time.
Chicken Marinade
Get a pack of diced chicken. Empty into a bowl and add:
3 tablespoons Greek yogurt
1 tablespoon tikka curry powder
1 tablespoon paprika
1 tablespoon garlic granules
1 tablespoon onion granules
1 teaspoon cumin
1 teaspoon Garam masala
1 teaspoon turmeric
1 tablespoon tomato purée
2 tablespoon lemon juice
Now I prefer to cook from scratch but if you can’t by all means get a jar of sauce for ease! I did the marinade first and left it all afternoon while I cooked the rest.

With the second pack of diced chicken pop it into another bowl.
3 tablespoon Greek yogurt
1 tablespoon Tandoori curry powder
1 teaspoon garlic
1 tablespoon garlic
1 tablespoon onion granules
1 teaspoon paprika
1 teaspoon chilli powder
1 tablespoon tomato purée
1 tablespoon lemon juice
Leave these as long as you can before cooking.
To make the sauces, for the Tikka Sauce you need;
4 cloves of garlic
1 white onion diced
1 tablespoon cumin
1 tablespoon cinnamon
1 tablespoon paprika
1 tablespoon tikka curry powder
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon tumeric
500g passata
100g coconut fat free yogurt

Fry onions and garlic.
Add spices and passata. Let it bubble then simmer for 10 mins. Leave to thicken. Add the yogurt. Done.
For the other sauce I made a korma.
2 white onions
1 teaspoon ginger
2 garlic cloves
2 carrots
1 tablespoon coconut flour (I’ll be honest I used coconut 🤷🏻‍♀️)
1 tablespoon turmeric
1 teaspoon paprika
1 teaspoon ground coriander
1 teaspoon curry powder
1 teaspoon cumin
1 tablespoon tomato purée
1/2 teaspoon almond essence
250ml coconut yogurt
300ml stock
Stick the onion, garlic, ginger and carrot in a food processor or chop finely. Fry for a minute. Then add the tumeric, paprika, coriander, cumin and curry powder. Stir. Add stock. Simmer and leave until reduced. Then add the rest of the ingredients and it’s done.
We all know how to make rice by now so I won’t go into that. If however you don’t buy microwave rice. Sorted lol 😂
Moving on to my favourite dishes….
Onion Bhajis 😍
Large white onion and red onion, chop up and stick it in a bowl. Then add 60g of gram flour, a teaspoon of lemon juice, 2 teaspoon of ground cumin, 1 tablespoon coriander seeds, a green chilli, and some coriander and 1/4 teaspoon of baking powder. Add a bit of water to make a paste and mix with your fingers. Season with salt then leave for 15 minutes before you then shapes to small mounds and place in baking paper then cook for 15-20 minutes.

Ok stick with it we are nearly done! The last one is vegetable samosas.
So boil 400g of potatoes and mash when cooked. I won’t tell you how to make mash as you should be able to make mash by now! If you can’t then let’s face it a fakeaway probably isn’t your best starting point!
When that’s done, get a large frying Ian and add the potatoes. 1 tablespoon of curry powder, and 110g of frozen peas. Stir fry for 5 mins. Take off the heat and add 4 tablespoon choppy coriander, 1 red chilli and season well with salt.
Get your filo pastry and layer three sheets together, cut in half width-ways, then into strips. Spray with fry light wither side to make it easier to work with. Stick some
Mixture at the bottom and fold into triangles. Stick them on a tray with baking paper and cook for 15-20 minutes.

Now the last thing I made was a risk. We hadn’t made it before so Ste was suspicious! Turn out nice though. Chilli spiced squid.
Get however much squid you want and cut into rings. Add; 2 teaspoon salt, the juice of two lemons, 1 teaspoon ground coriander, 1 teaspoon ground cumin. 1 teaspoon chilli powder. 1 teaspoon tomato purée, 1 red chilli, 1 teaspoon ginger, 1 garlic clove. Mix and coat the squid evenly then stand for 15 mins. When your ready to serve, stick in a hot pan for 3 minutes and then serve.
You can garnish with mint and raw red onion if you want.

I realise it’s been a really really long blog but I hope it’s given you the get up and go to make a feast for your family. Plus it’s healthy so it’s a win all round!

Much love
Disclaimer – these are not my recipes. As always they are ones that I have collected over the years from various places xx

Unused birthday

Shoes never worn
Birthday hat never used.
Invites lay un-written and your birthday cake you never got to try.
As I look around the room, I wonder what would have been
Pen in my hand and birthday card in front of me.
What do I write to the boy who had nothing and never was. Never lived.
Nothing but pure love and yet such a broken heart.
Do I wish for a party, or cake, do I wish for presents in heaven. Or do I hope your heart was fixed, that you can feel me hug you. Oh what to write in your birthday card?
No friends to invite, no excited face. No memories or pictures to look on with delight.
Just an unused birthday.
Just a day of memories and scars. Heart break and hurt. A party for two, no invites or smiles. Just a loving memory, a small picture-less cake with a candle. Mantelpiece empty. Wondering what would have been. Just an unused birthday.

I love you with all my heart and more Ethan.
Much love xx

Emma’s Bites – Pie!

So I don’t know about you but I bloody love pie!
I love making cheese pie and this one is healthy and quick and easy to make.
You need a bag of grated cheese, potatoes and some wraps.
First of all peel and chop two small ish jacket potatoes and cook until soft then mash up.

While they cook, chop and dice an onion then fry in a pan with butter. It has
to be butter tho not fry light or oil.

Grab a bowl. Add the mash, onion and cheese. Now as always, don’t ask for amounts……ha ha. I used half a bag of cheese and one onion. I have to taste to see decide if it’s the right balance.
Get your wraps and some milk or an egg whisked up. Brush some along the edge on one half.

Then fill your wrap with a few tablespoons of your mixture and press the edges together. stick it in the oven for like 5/8 minutes until browns and then serve. I usually serve with hoops. Cheap. Cheerful. Tasty. Sorted!

As for my menu for this week. This week consists of;
Breakfast – Cereal
Lunch – Rice salad
Dinner – Cheese and onion pie wraps
Breakfast – Poached Egg on toast
Lunch – Rice salad
Dinner – Leftover beef sandwiches and carrot chips
Breakfast – Poached Egg on toast
Lunch – Picky plate
Dinner – Burger and chips
Breakfast – French toast and berries
Lunch – Rice salad
Dinner – Chicken wraps with wedges
Breakfast – Cereal
Lunch – Rice salad
Dinner – Indian fakeaway
Breakfast – Cereal
Lunch – Leftovers
Dinner – Afternoon tea (Ethan’s birthday)
Breakfast – Pancakes and berries
Lunch – Toasties
Dinner – Roast beef dinner
If you’ve seen something on my meal plan you like the sound of just let me know and I’ll write about that for you.
Much love. Emma x