Daily Archives: 12 June, 2019

Dyspraxia update

It’s been a long time since I wrote about my dyspraxia so I thought I would let you know how I’m getting on with that at the moment.
The truth is even after all these years it still gets me down.i just really bloody hate it and. It’s so frustrating. I still sometimes wonder even now how I ended up with all these bloody neurological conditions. It’s just not fair lol. It makes things so difficult and I would love to know what it’s like to not have all these conditions. My dyspraxia has got worse recently, I’ve no idea why but my FND has flared up again so I’m guessing that might have something to do with it.
I haven’t broken anything that I can remember anyway, however I have dropped so many things. I’ve spilt peas all over the floor, tea all over myself and even managed to catch my top on a door handle which meant I ended up with a really horrible cut on my arm. These things are never just a one off accident though it’s every day things like this!

Then there’s my hearing, that’s getting worse. I mean I can hear, it’s the fact that if there’s a few conversations going on I can’t filter them out too the one I should be listening too. Oh and background noise, that’s a nightmare!
I recently bought an adapter for my pen as that’s really starting to bug me now. I just find holding a pen so flipping difficult. I just can’t grip it properly to write with it.

What’s really fun now is having Dyspraxia and FND! Sometimes it’s hard to know the difference between them. Both gave speech problems and getting confused with words. My memory is getting worse and I’ll be honest it’s white embarrassing now.
You know what’s worse though? I worry that Alfie has it. I see traits of me in him, the dyspraxia side of me. In the grand scheme of life having dyspraxia isn’t the end of the word and if that’s all he has then compared to how poorly my first son was it’s a bonus. However that being said, it can make life hard work sometimes and I just don’t want them for him. Like most parents I want him to be 100% healthy, but we all know life doesn’t turn out that way.