I’m in a different part of my life now and I don’t think I realised.
Have you ever looked around and thought how on earth did I get here?
A bit like when you go on auto pilot when driving. You get in the car, fasten your belt, turn the car on, pop your favourite radio station on and drive. Then because you know the way you just go, your thoughts drifting. Suddenly, however long later you look at where you are and think wow, how on earth did I get here?
I suddenly felt the same about my life. One minute I am in my 20’s and still going out and doing young fun things. The next I’m in my mid thirties, two pregnancies, one living child, a step son, a life changing disability later and I feel like I’ve been shunted forwards into this phase and enjoying settling down in front of the tv in my pjs with hubby. I mean lets face it, being responsible for a small human is kind of a big deal and a life changing experience in itself.
After some personal things that have happened I suddenly felt myself bumped up to the next level so to speak. I mean I’ve been a Mum for a while now. Longer if you include being a Step Mum. It’s just, I don’t know. I’ve only just realised I am in this phase of my life and I can see the next phase creeping closer now too.
So despite being a Mummy I never really realised where I was.
I’m not saying I don’t like it, I just didn’t realise. Life just kind of races ahead and before you know it, you are ticking the next box up on the age section of a form and getting excited about organising your fridge along with side-lining the fact that you will never be fitting in the hen do dress again!!
So now I have realised I am in that next phase of life I am going to enjoy and embrace it as after all not many people get to experience a full life.
Have you ever realised anything like this before?