Dear Santa

Hope you are ok. I know your very busy, especially as it’s so close to Christmas.
I haven’t written in a while. I’m sorry for that.
I lost my Christmas sparkle you see.
Now I’m writing to you to tell you what I want for Christmas if that’s ok. I hope I’m not too late.
I’m a Mummy now, but I know you know that.
William wrote his, Alfie too. They are leaving a homemade mince pie especially for you.
Alfie is 3 now so it’s been a while since I treated myself. I have 5 pairs of leggings and 3 have holes in. I have 2 or 3 decent tunics to go over my leggings, my jeans are from a supermarket and I only have 1 pair that fit. Shoes are well let’s not go there shall we? Perfumes are few and far between and jewellery is much the same.
I have a new coat though my Mum got me that, the last one was so old I can’t remember buying it.
I’m guessing by now your thinking so she needs new clothes?
I’m ok, I will wait a bit longer.
The thing is Santa, I know your magical and I don’t know who else to ask.
The one thing I really want for Christmas……can you fix my heart? It broke a while back now. 4 years and 6 months to be exact. My son died. Christmas is now a dull sparkle without him in my life. Can you fix my heart by bringing me my son? Five more minutes please.
His blanket no longer smells of him, I have no picture of his feet, no family photo.
Please Santa,for Christmas, I just want my son back, mend his heart and mine will mend too.
Thank you Santa.
Love from Emma, aged 33.

By Admin

I am Mrs Shep aka Emma. Mum of boys. I suffer for FND and I also have dyslexia and dyspraxia. I chat about everything from baby loss and (sen) parenting to general life stuff. I even through in some meal ideas and recipes sometimes too!

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