My birthday

Today is my birthday.
I am 33 today and spending it the most perfect way possible. With my family.
Family has always been important to me. However through the years as tragedy has struck family means more to me than I can ever explain.
I’m so thankful for each year of getting older. It’s a celebration. A milestone. One that I plan to embrace and enjoy. There was once a time when I was apprehensive about getting older. Becoming middle aged and supposedly more responsible. Something changed though.
A dear friend once got robbed of her life so young. The dreaded C word took her.
Another friend managed to fight against the C word but still worries through fear of it rearing its ugly head once more. For now enjoys life with her husband and daughter more than ever.
My son. Who died aged 28mins as any longer and he would have suffered greatly.
So yes. I’m 33 and proud. I’m thankful for every day with the people I love the most.
I’ll let you in on another secret though. No matter how grateful. No matter the presents, the cake, the hugs off my loved ones…..
The one present I want can not be bought.
I love you Ethan Shepherd. So so very much. With all my heart and more I wish you were here to help me blow out my birthday candles and tear up the paper on my presents. Arguing with your brother on who’s turn it is to help me next. I wish more than anything that you were here with me to celebrate my birthday. Another occasion of you not being here, it never gets easier. I’m just used to the pain.
Love you always Ethan.
Love always to those close to me.
Happy birthday to me he he xxx

By Admin

I am Mrs Shep aka Emma. Mum of boys. I suffer for FND and I also have dyslexia and dyspraxia. I chat about everything from baby loss and (sen) parenting to general life stuff. I even through in some meal ideas and recipes sometimes too!

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