Long term lockdown effects

How lockdown has affected me long term and why I have anxiety taking my SEN son out.  So if you follow me you will know I’ve spoken a lot about my youngest son having additional needs.  Despite having significant memory problems I can actually remember the moment I realised Alfie was different. Very end of… Continue reading Long term lockdown effects

Emma spills the tea

There’s quite a few things in life I don’t understand and probably never will.  Politics, maths and people to name a few. I have spent a considerable amount of time the last few months spending some much needed time on myself. Something I am not good at is being kind to myself. In the past… Continue reading Emma spills the tea

Progress

So we are half way through the year and I have to say I feel like I have made some huge progress with things in my life. Well in certain areas anyway! I realise that sounds corny but it’s true. I feel like I am / have found out who I am or who I… Continue reading Progress

Cancelling 18 summers

As I write this I am sat in a park watching Alfie play. Questioning why I worry so much and if I am doing a good job.  Every parent worries but sometimes I think I have extra worries than some. It’s no secret that Alfie has complex difficulties and it’s known by most who follow… Continue reading Cancelling 18 summers

Summertime Fun!

My summer holiday annual treat….. So for the last few years I have decided to gather some things up ready for summer. These might be anything from  practical things like mini clip on hand gels for this year or fun things like geli baff (which we’ve never tried before and I’m honestly a little nervous!)  The… Continue reading Summertime Fun!

Why I took a social media break…..

I’m 35 and I only just found out that my favourite colour was purple.  I thought it was pink, however I think I kind of conformed to society for many years. However I just realised the purple was indeed my favourite colour.  It’s the reason I left social media for a while. Ok not literally… Continue reading Why I took a social media break…..

Reflection. The build up. The heartbreak.

It’s been 6 years now and I still remember those feelings you get surrounding the day your baby dies. It’s never usually about the day for me these days. It’s the build up. Remembering those last few innocent weeks before your world came crashing down around you. Remembering a time where you were blissfully unaware… Continue reading Reflection. The build up. The heartbreak.

A year in review – my spiritual journey.

If you are reading this I urge you to be open minded  about this.  I understand that some people will struggle to believe me but I promise you It’s almost been a year now since I started my journey back on this spiritual path. Yes you heard me correctly back on this journey. As far back as I… Continue reading A year in review – my spiritual journey.

Sheer terror and overwhelm

I’m meant to be sorting the online food shop out right now but honestly my head isn’t in it. I’m so overwhelmed at the moment that if I’m being honest even the thought of taking Alfie for his haircut after school today is making me want to cry. If you haven’t felt like this then… Continue reading Sheer terror and overwhelm

I ruined my own health

How I ruined my own health.  So hear me out it’s not what you think.  This isn’t about my FND or anything else I have going on physically. This about how I have slowly destroyed my own mental health without even realising.  In 2020 I shared something so raw and personal and whilst you may… Continue reading I ruined my own health

A single tear

A single tear rolled down my cheek today as I remembered the hope I once had of having you in my life.  Whilst that hope has long gone one thing that hasn’t gone is the love I still have for you.  As we approach 9 years since you were gone. I can’t help but think… Continue reading A single tear